Monday, March 23, 2020
Today I went to my studio for the last time. I’m not sure when I’ll be back. I gathered whatever I needed to be fully teaching via video at home.
Tyler and I spoke again today about whether or not the flu-like illness we had at the end of February was actually Corona. I guess we will never know. There are cases of the virus in Fairmont, Jackson and Orange City. Since Jackson is so close, it was a major factor in deciding to move fully to video lessons and go into isolation.
It’s kind of amazing the wave of emotions one can go through during just a single day. I didn’t like being out at my studio because it felt like such a risk, even though the risk was controlled because it was just me. I’ve been filling Tyler in on the latest from California as my friend keeps me updated and the numbers of cases close to here. He asked why I keep checking on what’s going on. I told him knowing the information makes me feel more in control. Then I can more accurately make decisions. Am I the only one who feels this way?
Wednesday, March 25, 2020
We’ve had the first death in Iowa. I also made the mistake of listening to a radio interview of a case of someone in Fort Dodge who had no previous medical conditions, but contracted the virus and was put on a ventilator. She’s recovered, but hasn’t gotten back her full ability to breathe.
Someone close in my family had to make a trip to a larger city that has more infections because of a different medical emergency. It’s made me feel frustrated and lifeless at the same time. Which, are generally opposing emotions.
I spent most of the late afternoon and early evening in video lessons. What I’m surprised to discover, from video lessons, is all the interesting set-ups my students have for practicing at home. It certainly helps me understand better how practice is going at home when I can see the piano in the kitchen, or home office, or basement. One of my students sat outside on their deck for their guitar lesson. I feel the guitar has this been deemed by me to be the superior video lesson instrument, because you can take it anywhere.
I don’t care for video lessons. It’s the only option, but I hope I can teach in person again soon.
Thursday, March 26, 2020
We have our first confirmed case in the county. So here we go, into the great unknown.
I didn’t feel so great today. I stayed up late last night and dreamt a lot, so I ended up taking a nap this afternoon. I’ve been fighting a headache/light migraine for most of the week. Consequently, I’ve kept a low profile.
Our governor is still not wanting to make any shelter in place orders. The president wants businesses to reopen by Easter regardless of the condition of our healthcare system and the ways the virus is spreading.
And then today, one of my youngest students, who is seven, was so excited to show me his keyboard during our video lesson. He showed me the different sounds and how he can record on it. Just when I was feeling down about the state of things again, I was reminded that there are still things to be excited about. Like playing your piano song on the strings setting.
I think with the next couple of days off from video teaching, I’ll feel much better, bc I won’t be reminded what I’m missing. It will be a normal weekend-where I don’t leave the house.
Saturday, March 28, 2020
I was ready to enjoy another full day off of video lessons and try to maintain peace and calm. Ignore the news cycle, which I mostly did. But I’m afraid my body got the best of me by the end of the day.
I started by taking out some pent-up energy (something I rarely have) on taking apart the old mattress that was sitting in our basement. It rained and stormed all day. But by the afternoon, my body was overreacting and I began to suspect I overdid it with my physicality today. I know these little blog updates are mostly about my “in the moment feelings” with the changes in the world caused by the virus, but I can’t seem to escape my illnesses totally.
One of the things I discussed with the rheumatologist way back when, was that my body tends to overreact to things. That’s the main issue with my central nervous system firing for no reason or getting its signals crossed.
So, every so often, I have a rough day. Today was one of those days, and I was having a bit of an over reactive digestive system. I adjusted and ate very small meals and even skipped dinner. And truly, since I was ill at the end of February, I was expecting this type of thing to happen a few times. I tend to get a “round” of sequential illnesses or bad days, especially after having something like the flu. It’s never one and done.
After I had the flu in 2016, I also had bacterial conjunctivitis (the most painful experience of my life…honestly), laryngitis for two months, and an super activation of one of my viral conditions.
In conjunction, I’ve been having the rash lesions from that viral conditions show up every so often this past month since I had the flu. When the lesions appear, it’s a sign my immune system isn’t quite functioning. It’s almost like a weird warning that I haven’t recovered. But, I was expecting my viral condition to reactivate after having the flu.
I was not, however, expecting to break out in hives this evening.
And I will have you note, I was not prepared. Who even knows the last time I had hives? That’s not a thing that happens to me regularly. I didn’t have any Benadryl. I tend to keep on top of having all medications I may possibly need at any given time at the ready thanks to my neurological condition. But, alas, I screwed this one up. And you know what is not open late during the Covid-19 crisis? Anything. Nothing is open late. Every store has reduced hours and special hours and many places are curbside pickup only. So I decided to take a Tylenol PM (it has Benadryl listed in the ingredients…so…let’s hope it works) in the meantime. I’ll be fine. I’m not anaphylactic or anything. I’m just continually surprised by my body’s ability to always overreact to everything.
Here’s to a less-itchy tomorrow!